I am nothing, but You are all.

I meditated about Moses life in Exodus chapter 1~4.
Moses was saved from death, and he became the prince of Egypt.
He tried to save the Israel, his people, from oppressing on Egypt, but he ran far away by killed one person. He lived by an absconder, so he lost everything-wealth, health, youth, fame, athority... and his heart to God. He had changed Nothing! He was Nothing!

God is always everything to all peoples of the earth, forever!
God saved Moses from death, and He made him as the prince of Egypt.
God gave him all abilities of human life-wealth, health, knowledge and power-, heart of knowing God, and loving God. One day God took away all of them he had, so he became nothing in his life.
Then God visited Moses, Everything visited Nothing!
Then He started to change him from nothing to everything, death to life, an absconder to ruler of all nations, knowing God to loving God, and following God to living God. All of them were possible by God, and He said, "I will be with you, everytime, everywhere, and forever. I am who I am."

Jesus is everything of God, our Father, to me.
He came to me, was dying by my sins, and gave me all of Himself.
Nowadays my Lord teaches me that I am nothing, I have had ever-my careers, past record, ability..., so I am comfessing to Him, "Yes, I am nothing, but my Lord is everything to me."
And Jesus says to me, today, "You stay in your cross, this is your beginning and end."

Yes, I do!
Only Jesus is in me, Jesus is my everything!

The distance from head to mouth!

Have you ever heard 'the distance from head to heart'?
It has been said, 'it takes usually long time that knowing will become doing'.

I have been feeling nowdays, starting to study grammar, that I had known about English grammar a little from my student's time, so I can not feel 'new'.
Nevertheless, it is matter that I can not speak English well with speedly, naturaly, fluently....
Why can I not speak, hear English?
I think the answer that it is so far from knowing English to speaking English- from head to mouth.

Judy said to us on last Friday, "It is not important that you know well about grammar, but it is important that you hear, speak well English.", and then she said, "Practice, practice, practice, everytime, everywhere, everyhearing, everyseeing, everythinking, everyfeeling. Never Stop Practicing!"
I am here, our room, now I think, "How can we practice English everytime?"

God helps us that we can practice English well.
Give us Your wisdoms, strength, and heart!
Our God has been making us to live by His everything-love, mercy, righteousness, endurance, etc.
God will do it!
Thank you, I love you, my Lord, forever!
I will follow, rely upon You, forever!

The missionary`s life!

What is the missionary`s life?
How do you as christian live?
How do the people called by God live?

I thought about that qustions when we visited at YWAM Base in Saipan, and talked with Rang & Angelina, Joses, and Dave.
For a short time I saw them, heard about their life, but I felt their devotional life to God.
They have been walking along with God as a missionary, a christian, and a child of Father, so no matter what they have been working in a dirty and hard chicken farm during more than 20 years.

I have been living in WMM as a missionary for 8 years.
I have thought that I will do anything that God orders me, but if God say me to live in chicken farm as a farmer, I guess say, "Oh, just moment, Are you my God, is it right?"
I will not follow His order easily.
So I have been thinking about the missionary`s life after I had met them that day.

Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. (Matthew 16:24)

God will do everything to me, by His will!

God has made me ruller of all nations!

I meditated Genesis 45, last saturday.
I want to share to you about it.
I have confessed in my life, God has been leading me untill now.
I came here, on Saipan, I am convinced, God brougt me with Him.

"So then, it was not you who sent me here, but God. He made me father to Pharaoh, lord of his entire household and ruler of all Egypt. Now hurry back to my father and say to him, 'This is what your son Joseph says: God has made me lord of all Egypt. Come down to me; don't delay. (45:8,9)
Joshep had been leaded by God for a long time, while he had spent very difficult time.
In the end he was made by God the ruller of Egypt to save the peoples in many famine countries. Joseph had not known all of this, he had followed God in silent, he could endure for his time, because he could trust in God`s covenant and dream. So he had made big storehouses for famine people to share the grain to them. I think that God wants to show them is not foods but the God with Joseph-God had leaded, been endured, made wise, made ruller of Egypt. God wants to share Himself-is aliving, protecting, leading, and fulfilling His promises-to all of them.

This year God said to us in our community, "Open Joseph`s storehouses to all nations!"
I have known that we are prepared to preach about Gospel in English, but I know that, God wants to us, we have to show the God-is aliving, protecting... etc.-to all nations. Now the world is famine. God says, "The days are coming," declares the Sovereign LORD, "when I will send a famine through the land-- not a famine of food or a thirst for water, but a famine of hearing the words of the LORD."(Amos 8:11)
We are preparing for sharing aliving God in our life, not food, not about Gospel.
Last night, we worshipped the Lord, is aliving among us, we confessed, repented ourselves to God. God have leaded us untill now. God have done everything to us.
Finally, God has made us ruller of all nations!
We are going to sharing, praying, and walking around the world!

And Israel said, "I'm convinced! My son Joseph is still alive. I will go and see him before I die."(ver.28)
And we will say, "I`m convinced! My peoples is still alive. I will go and see them before Jesus Christ will come, soon"
God will do it!

Thank you, Lord, for sharing youself and life.
Thank you, for we trusting Your words.

I floated on the sea!

Halleluya!
Wow, I floated on the sea yesterday.
Before I could not swim or float on the water.
When I dipped my body in the sea, there were 4 persons - Ji Hoon, Joy, Eunice, Judy-, they were swimming with exciting. Eunice could not swim before, but she lied down on the sea, was floating like a ship for a long time. She shouted "It is very good, wonderful. Look at the sky.", and praised the Lord. Then we looked she went so far, we said "Stop, Eunice, stop!", and she shouted, "Don`t dissuade me!". She spent fantastic time with floating on the sea.

After I saw her, I started to try to float on the water like the backstroke in the lower waters. I could not cause to lose force in my body, dip my head, because I should die, afraid of water. Then the another said me, "Believe the waters. Only faith like a child.", but I could not, not, not...
I tried to float many times, I could dip my head, I felt the water came into my ear, face, I entrusted my body with a water. Wow, I floated on the water!
God did it!
From that time I floated continuously untill ate dinner, after dinner I floated again and again!
I never stop my exciting with floating on the sea. !^ ^!
I learnd rules of faith in that time with floating, as the one wants to die but he lives. I knew that all of cases in life are applied to rules of faith.

After we have done swimming, Judy said with joking, "I hope that we all try to master English as tried to swim, float..." Yes, she was right. In the sea I tried continuosly to floating with deciding to death, but I have not effort to death about learning English ever. I am sorry...

My lord, I may not spend this time to learn English to take its own course, help me!
I want to learn English by only faith, as the one wants to die but he lives, as I learnd how to float on the sea. I am convinced, God helps us always, and we can speak English better and better!
I am not disappointed now-I can not speak English well-, but I am looking forward to God will help us more and more. God will do this through us!
Thank you, my Lord, You are very faithful to your children!
Thank you for your kindly taeching!

My English come up!

We went to the beach today, seeing blue sea, singing to the God, and taking plesure time!
I send our thanking to Judy because she was poured her heart to teach, serve, help, and encourage us.

Now a days I think that we are easily tired, have trouble in every case.
Why are we ...?
Where are our strength, power, and wisdom?
We know answers well about this questions.
We know the Truth well, much talk about it another persons.
Why is it not strength to us?

Do you not know? Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:28~31)

I have been knowing that I do not have any problem to pronounce English, but Judy wants more to practice untill I develope to like Americans-I guess-.
Anyway I know to upgrade my level to pronounce, write, and speak English, one by one.
Yes , Lord! I can do all of them, but I can not grow tired and weary in You, because You are my hope and strength!
Thank you Lord, I love my Lord wholeheartly!

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter!
April 12, 2009 Easter worship service in GCA church was very graceful to me!
Paster Kynsella peached Gospel aloud big voice.

I felt his heart when he shouted, I had same thought for Gospel.

Jesus Christ is only way, life, truth to deliever us from our sin, he came to the earth, died on the cross, resurrected to death, and gave His Holy Spirit to us!
In spite of most of peoples in the world do not believe God-about more 80%-, the church do not fail, go ahead preaching Gospel, continue.
May God give us your heart, power and strength to preach the Gospel.

What was it like to join with the young of Good news church of Saipan?

I participated the meeting of GNCS, last Thursday.
I saw the Hope of God in the young people of GNCS.
They said the hope of living by Words of God, and their fighting about sins, desire of body.
They said that "I know the complete Gospel, love of God, and must live by following God, but I do not know how to be lead by God, how to live with God"
Then I remember when I was young, I was very guilty; drunk, sexual impurity..., but God remembered me, looked up me, saved me, and leaded me one step and one step.
I learned how to read Bible, pray to God, meditate Bible, and fight against sin, there were that I was victory, or was defeated. God leaded me, called into a missionary.

I am sure that they are leaded by God, they will become a soldier of God.
I will pray that.

How about think, WSA?

Hellow, everyone!
What`s your today like?
I spent studying English hard-maybe-, pleasure in Jesus, today.

Today, I have any question to you.
Did you hear about pocket money, we may give you?
Do you understand it?
Remember our meeting in Sunday night.

What do you think, how much give it to you?
Tell about it, in my Blogger, Everybody!
Not say to me, but write in my Blogger!

Another question is,
Did you do Internet Banking about you money in Korea?
Maybe you did it,
Tell about it to Eunice!
Can you understand about all?
I am sure you can!
We will determine about that after you answer.

Thank you for your attention, and suggestions!
Only God is our Strength!
Have you good time, loving English!

We are the English Speaking Lover of God!

God`s eyes fix on you!

Where dose the eyes of the God fix on?
Where do the eyes of me fix on?
When I saw the movie, `Slumdog Millionaire`, I thought about the question.

God`s eyes ....
A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling. -Psalm 68:5
Our God is the Father of the weakest peoples of the world, he always take care of them, lead them to save from the sinful world, to glorious the sons of the God.
God finds them, hear their voices, now!

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.- Matthew 5:3
It is to say, a peoples are not the poor of wealth, rich, but the poor of their heart.
The poor of heart will seek sincerely anything to fulfill their heart.
And those who seek me find me. - Proverbs 8:17

Love ....
I saw the love of Jamal in the movie, he did not forget, cotinued to find Laticha.
I know our God`s love.
Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away. If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love, it would be utterly scorned. - Song of songs 8:6,7

Faith ...
I believe that the God will save the poor at all costs, already the only Son costs.
The eyes of the God fixs on India , Dallit-Slum.

Thank you for I know your heart!

The third Birthday!

I was my birthday yesterday, April 3 on Saipan.
I had a small party with my members, and Saipan`s friends, they made cake, lumbiya, and noodle, and we ate, took pleasure time.

I thought I have three the birthday.
It is that My first birthday was February 20, 1972-the lunar calendar.
From that day, I had been as a sinner to February 28, 2002.
I was born again the day 2002, it is my second birthday, the spiritual birthday.
After I was born again, I have been as a son of God, son means daughter, I have been by faith in Jesus, and I have run to the day of Jesus christ coming.
I have spent any more important my sinful birthday.
While I looking forward to the Day, God send me to Saipan for learning English to be a light of nations.

When I spent yesterday, my birthday, April 3, 2009 -the solar calendar- it was given to me from God. I have to say, I think, I got the third birthday.

Toward the all nations, new sart is beginning to me!
God has doing all!

Thank you Lord!
Thank you my friends!

April 1, 2009, English start!

Are you afraid of only English speaking?
No, I am not afraid of it.
I believe that I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
I want to start with New mind, feel, determination in all the time.

I meditated on Gen. 28 this morning.
There were Jacob`s new starting at Bethel, that he had dreamed God saying to him.
Then God said him about the covenants that God had been given to his father, and grandfather.
He heard about it, and he made a vow, and prayed for return safty.

Yesterday, I have dreamed of English studying.
Today, I decide to `New Starting with My Lord`, and pray that God gives us strength.

God has to do everything to the His Glory, Honor, and Rejoiceing.
Thank you for giving your dream!
Thank you for starting with joy!